firstly and foremost this happened around 2 years ago junior year. i have been feeling rlly guilty about it latelgy. it started when i wore a red lace tank to school, i do dress revealing and i understand guys can be guys which leads me to weird situationships where guys think i HAVE to go out with them this is fucked up but who really cares, he took attraction and asked me out.

he was not my type and i had never talked to him so i politely declined. he got mad so i walked away. later he took actions to comment on a Instagram slideshow of me at the beach, i modeled in Sophomore year and i had LOVED these photos, i was wearing a bikini and a see through floral overdress like mesh over it and i looked amazing (imo) so i had posted them. there was no negative opinions however he decided to comment "SLUT" and "WHORE" and told me to kms, and leaked my home photos and address. (public acc btw) i knew if i had posted this there would be opinions so i asked my friends, they called him a bunch of things. (i told them not to say any death threats as he did look unwell and i was worried.

the next day at school in class i had asked to go to the bathroom and the teacher said yes and he said very loudly. shes gonna go fuck a dude. no one laughed. when word got out and people saw the comments more, he posted a toxic masculinity thing like "girls only like 20% of men. shes a slut" on his notes..this led to some bullying and i didnt know how bad it got when i posted one back saying "100% of women wouldnt like you, not just 80%)

a week later he had hung himself over spring break.

i felt guilt, i tried to apologize to family but no response. there was no funeral, i dont know the family relationship and maybe it was super private. i got backlash from a lot of guys but it was kind of forgotten quickly.

ive been feeling guilty, maybe i should start a GOFUNDME for his family?? i shouldve hosted something like a wake for his funeral. i feel so guilty but ik he did stuff wrong but i also know i never bullied him but i did kind of start it? idk.