So basically I(19F) am studying medicine, which takes a lot of my time, literally I’m over the books all the time. At the same time my parents told me they would always be helping me financially while I study so I don’t have to take a job and probably fail some exams, which sounds amazing, I know I’m putting everything I can and I’m doing amazing in college so far.

The thing is that their help is not enough for me honestly, I understand that we are middle class, not near rich people or something and they don’t have a lot, which made me look for jobs, because here and there I want to go to parties, restaurants, buy clothes, etc… you know what I’m talking about. But when I talked with them about this they told me NO, they don’t want me working because I will be failing exams as they say.

I decided to start an adult page, I know it’s shameful and will probably hunt me down on my life but I have no other choice basically, I feel imprisoned and I talked about them, I knew how they’ll react and it was probably the biggest argument we ever had… But I still decided to do it. It’s my life and my choices so I did it.

A few months in, I’m not making enough to live off it, but enough to buy myself some clothes, go out with friends etc and I finally feel alive, which even made me study more and being more motivated which is amazing. They ofc found out because they asked me how I got these money and I straight up told them.

Now both my parents are mad, crazy mad actually, but at the same time, what choice did I have? Honestly I wasn’t feeling alive, I was demotivated, I wanted to feel like everyone else in this world. I understand they can’t pay me for things, if they had they would’ve but at the same time.. I’m still a human lol. Now I’m sleeping at my best friend and she is helping me mentally a lot. Idk what to do.. I don’t want to have issues with them, I love them but at the same time I want to be heard.

Sooo AITAH??