I am a homosexual 19M. I come form an orthodox Muslims family in a small town in India. The only two people who know about my sexuality are my best friend (lets call her Lia) and my partner (lets call him Farhan). I love both of them. I have been dating Farhan for 3 years now.

Here comes the disturbing part. When I was 16, once my older cousin, who was 20 at that time, saw my chats with Farhan. He threatened me. He said if i don't do what he says me to do, he will tell my father. I was scared and weak so i agreed to him. Since then, every Sunday i used to go to his house and he sexually assaulted me. He was a sadist. I was often left with bruises in my chest area, back and genitals. I was scared, devastated and broken. I couldn't tell this to Farhan as i thought he might think that i am cheating on him and leave me. I tried to unalive myself multiple times but couldn't do it.

Once i refused to do anything and my cousin told me he will harm my boyfriend as well if i dont listen to him. This broke me. I love Farhan. I can't let anything happen to him. So made my mind to tell him.

After two entire years of being assaulted, I finally told Farhan everything. He held me as i cried and kissed me assuring that everything is going to be alright. We made a plan. We told our parents we want to go to Kota to prepare for JEE. Both of them agreed and we left the town shortly.

In kota, we were finally free. We lived together and made tons of friends. Lia was our best friend. When we came out to her, she supported us. I was good in studies and secured a rank in JEE mains.

This year we had to go back for Eid. I was scared but Farhan assured me that everything is going to be alright. During the Dawat, both of our families were together. Everyone was talking having fun. Suddenly, my father stood up and announced that I was going to get engaged. "I was shocked" is an understatement. After the Dawat, my father sat me down and told that as i have completed my JEE mains and got a good rank I can go to any NIT. Before that he wants me to be engaged to daughter of someone he knows, she was 16. I said that it is too soon and i actually want to go to IIT (Lie). He refused saying that NITs are what i deserve. Once i graduate, I have to marry that girl. I was devastated.

I broke down in my room at night. My mother came to comfort me. Idk why but i told her everything, about me being gay, the abuse, except about Farhan. She was silent. Didn't speak to me for 2 days. Finally when she did, she apologized. She said that she saw the marks but never thought these were from being sexually assaulted. She apologized for not protecting me, for not being a good mother. I held her and we both cried. She said I should run away. It's not safe for me to live there any more. She'll help me to run. I called Farhan that night and told him everything. He wanted to ran away too. Midnight. both of us packed our bags and went to the train station. My mother gave me some money said to never come back.

Now we are in a new city, currently living with Lia. We both are doing part time jobs to make money for our college. Everything feels right now. I have my best friend, the man I love and a mother who understood me. This may sound like a happy ending, there is more to it. Few hours back I got an email. It was from my brother. My mother was arrested for attempt for murder. Apparently, she tried to unalive my abuser, but was caught. Idk if i should go. My brother thinks i am an ahole for abandoning our family. What should I do?