My mom is a horrible person. She has done unspeakable things. I would say shes the most evil person I’ve ever met.

I’m pregnant, and I went no contact with her 3 years ago. I told her why. That I think she’s a horrible person and unless she changed everything about herself I have no interest in associating with her.

But she knows I’m pregnant and she has my phone number somehow. She knows I’m pregnant bc I post about it on social media and even though I block her she finds me still.

Apart of me feels bad because family is family. And she’s evil but she is only evil because of outside influences. I know her heart is good. I remember her having really good parts to her. And I feel bad that I’m too hurt by her to allow her to have a grandchild because I know it’s important to her even though she’s a twisted individual.

She texts me and I ignore it. The hard part is she won’t just forget about me. I’m her daughter and I’m about to have her first grandchild. She will try and try and I will have to say no and no. But I feel like an asshole. I feel like I’m robbing her of something that could actually make her a good person.

My mind is filled with what ifs. Like what if the love she has for my child would make her change her ways. What if that’s the one thing that could save her?

I want her dead. As bad as it is, I wish she didn’t exist. It makes it hard. And she scares me so bad. She does witchcraft and I’m scsred she’ll put a spell on me or find me. I have nightmares all the time.

So am I the asshole for wanting my mom to be dead and not letting her have a grandchild?