Context:

Me (13f), my dad(39m) and my brother(10m) have been living together for 2 years and me and my dad for 2 years 3 months. In those two years was a lot of lectures, fights, and threats from my dad. They mostly consisted on why we were lazy, and when we don't deliver on what we said we were going to do. Most people tell me that my dad is a bit strict but I think I disagree because it's mostly my fault that his strict, because I always procrastinate (although I have improved a lot and I now don't go on social media except for Reddit and YouTube and the amount of time I procrastinate died down) and I don't always give my best potential, that I'm not sure why because it's not intentional. And my parents are divorced, also my mom is a soft mom and really spoils us so I think I am a spoiled brat?

Story:

Okay so today I forgot to charge my dads laptop to the point it reached to battery saver mode, after that I charged it and it reached half way but then my dad came home and asked for his laptop for a meeting he needs to join. So I give him his laptop and mid meeting his laptop goes flat, no problem I give him the charger. Well after the meeting he calls me over and asked me, "(my name) WHOS many times do I have to tell you to charge my laptop?" And then I respond with, "many times." So now he has a serious look in his face and he tells me that his tired of always having to repeat himself, which is totally fair and I understand plus he always is at work so he was tired. My dad then suggested that he should take away the laptop since I can't take responsibility and charge it, but the thing is that I need to for school because I do online school. And since I didn't want to seem disrespectful because I did a mistake I agreed with him, now looking back at it I think I was being so stupid. But then he asks if I'm sure but the thing is I KNWO if I say I need the laptop he is going to make me come up with a better reason than "I need it for school." Because my grads average from 60 to 80 which is bad. So then I keep on stuttering my answers like a fool because I genuinely did not know what to say.

My dad then asked if I needed time to think and I nodded my head but before I left his room he warned me that I shouldn't take to much time. So I go to my study desk and right doen a knowledgeable answer to his question and recite it, while I was reciting he came out of his room and asked if I was doing my school work and I told him the thruth and told him that I was still coming up with my answer. He then scolded me and said that was not what I was supposed to do, and he said that I was supposed to show that I am responsible by doing my school work instead of writing, in his words "a stupid letter." And then he scolded me saying how many times he has to say the same thing again. But the thing is he told me to come up with an answer so isn't it rude to ignore his request and do my school work instead? But anyway he tells me that it's late and I should sleep, so I bring him his phone that was charging near me and he tells me that I haven't told him why he should not take the laptop away from me, and I'm so confused by this. And then he tells me that I can't use his laptop, and then age asked me why I didn't respect his time after he told me that he was tired and that he wanted to sleep, and I replied WITG because I was writing my responses, another stupid answer and it's disrespectful. He also said that he is going to take the night and think if he should take me to my moms side, and I said that I would respect his wishes and then he criticised my answer and said that, wouldn't I just want to be responsible? So then he tells me to sit down and grab a chair next to him.

My dad then asked me what I want to achieve in life (his asked this many times), and if I am sure that I would not blame him in the future for this, and a whole bunch of other questions.

I answered each and every question wrong and now I'm here In my bed just wondering why I victimised myself and what other thing I can do right, honestly I'm just confused and I want to cry. I'm also afraid of losing him but I feel so trapped but then I know that it's my fault, I don't KNWO what to do. But I also don't want to give up because I really want to get the best marks that I KNWO I'm capable of, plus I also have a career and I want to do so much with my hobbies.

Idk but was I the a hole for wasting my dads time like that?

Edit: I am also doing my rap career and his my manager and songwriter, I am going to have to start from the bottom up again.