I guess this does sound assholish but there is context. This friend, let's call her Claire has been my friend since 6th grade. We've fought a lot back then and one time she even played a nasty prank on me calling me names with other classmates (pig, embarrassing, etc.) We were kids and she's apologised profusely so I got over it. Couple years later I receive a text over the summer " I know I was an asshole to you these past few years and you stuck up to my bullshit. I love you, I'm sorry, I am ashamed to admit but I was jealous of you". I forgive her again for some stupid reason. I truly in all my heart did forgive her and let go of any grudges. This year, she decides to spread a rumor about the popular girl in our class and slut shame her. I start avoiding her because my name was getting dragged along with hers. She confronts me about "not being there for her" when it was all happening and turning my back on her. I apologise and explain that I was detaching myself from the situation, not her. That was the last straw, I mentally stopped being friends with her and my perception of her totally changed but I still pretend we're fine and chill. I've had no problem avoiding her due to our busy schedules but now that the school year is ending she's been bugging more and more to hang out and I can't come up with more excuses or keep pretending. To her, we're still "besties" and chill but I've been accruing this hatred towards her over the past few months and pushing it all down and I feel horrible for doing that and being fake but we're all a part of the same friend group and breaking it off will be super awkward and make things even more dramatic and complicated. Shes a mastermind manipulator and always finds a way to flip the script so that she's the victim. I've watched her lie about the situation with the popular girl through her own teeth as she had no idea I was present when it all happened and wanted to make it look like she didn't do anything wrong. I don't even know how to do it. I've been trying to distance myself but she won't get the hint at all. This friendship is truly draining but I'm 100% sure breaking it off will be even more draining. I feel stuck, almost like I'm with a toxic ex who won't leave me alone. Everytime I tried distancing myself after a nasty situation she did she would call my mom, my siblings, and mutual friends so that I'm forced to talk to her and make up.