So I'm 18(F) About 2yrs ago. I had a very important project to submit in school and I was sick for over a week so I couldn't work on it the past few days. I was supposed to submit on Saturday and it was Friday morning. I was running late already when dad asked me to make him tea. I politely told him no and that I'm really busy right now with projects I promise I'll make it later. Dad got very angry. Mom was sitting right there doing nothing so I asked her to please make him tea and that I'm really stressed..she started yelling at me about disrespecting my father. My dad got very angry and started screaming loudly saying I'm a terrible daughter and he use to do everything for his parents and I can't even make him tea. He was yelling and cursing me. At the time I was fed up and said quietly agreed to make him tea. I made him tea and he threw it away and asked me to never call him dad again if I can't even obey him. I wish I was exaggerating but I really am not. I had to stay up all night that day to finish my project .He stopped talking to me after that. He didn't speak to me during my highschool graduation or attend as a matter of fact. Didn't wish me on my birthdays and ignored my presence and acted like he only had one daughter (my little sister). He has always treated her better and doted on her while treating me harshly. It's been 2 years. He ignored all my attempts to talk to him. He walks out of the room when I'm in there. I've overheard him talking to mom on multiple occasions that I'm a burden and he only has one daughter. I stopped letting it bother me after the first few times. He's a great dad to my sister. The problem is, I'm going to college soon. I got into some good colleges but my parents didn't let me go because it's expensive. I suggested a student loan and they won't let me take one because if I can't pay it off, they have to. They won't listen or let me take a loan. I brought the topic up with my mom multiple times. She told me dad doesn't care about me and he told mom that he doesn't care if I go to college or not but he won't help me with my student loans or college. I don't want their money. I just want the damn loan. I told mom that she can do something and she said she won't do anything unless I talk to dad and ask for his forgiveness. We had this talk multiple times over the past few years. She keeps blaming me and saying I'm a horrible daughter for disobeying him and that he's the reason I'm alive. I should be grateful. Mom can help but she refuses to saying it's none of her concern what happens with me. She's forcing me to ask dad for forgiveness but he won't even look at me??? Aitah here? I'm genuinely confused Please excuse my grammar. I was rambling a little