Okay to premise this I know I probably am the AH but nevertheless.

When I was young I wasn't the best looking in school but when I left school I managed to hit a glow up and ended up getting married. I'm currently 23 and I'm in a happy loving marriage. I love my husband a lot and I'm not looking to entertain anyone else but I have this issue and my husband noticed it too where I always look if guys I watching me in public, obviously it's an issue to him but I tried to make it clear that I'm not seeking anything else but I get he still sees the issue

I guess the reason why I enjoy it when guys look at me is because I lack the self confidence to realize what I've become but I'm still stuck in that mind set that I'm not good enough.

I want to find a way to fix it but I just can't stop it's like satisfaction to my brain or something. I really need some help figuring out what I'm suppose to do because I don't want my marriage to go down the drain.

The other issue is also that recently it hit near home when we were at a function and his closest guy cousin who's also 23 kept giving me eyes and staring at me and I just couldn't help but notice this everytime and my husband obviously thought I was checking him out but I wasn't I just enjoyed getting the attention that I can actually make people feel this way.

I really can't bare with it anymore , idk how to fix myself.