I (18M) love my girlfriend with everything. She is a heart-held, warm little woman, and we have been together for all of 3 and a bit years now. But lately, I have been yearning for another woman who is much younger and matches my personality and energy a lot of the time. She is so beautiful with everything in the right place, and her energy is so youthful and full of life that I just feel so happy when I'm around her. I love my girlfriend as she is right now. I know I would never be the man that I am today if it weren't for her and her family by my side. They have all helped me through a lot of mine and my family's struggles, as I have there's, I recently was just at another one of her great-grandfather's funeral, and her great-grandmother absolutely loves me, as does her aunt and a couple of other people in her family on top of her. I feel guilty constantly that I feel not as attracted to my girlfriend as much as I am to this other woman, whom I feel so close to and so much longing for whenever I'm around her. We love to sing together (we're both choir kids) and shes friends with my younger sister, which is how I came to know her as well as through choir, but she's just the perfect person to be. She's kind, generous, beautiful voice, a lovely conversationalist, perfect figure, and just my perfect resemblance of what a person could be. My girlfriend is a pretty little woman, short in stature, but she makes up for it with her heart for people and everyone she meets. She's a kind, generous person to but I just don't feel as pulled to her anymore as I do with this other girl. My current girlfriend is also two years older than I, and the other is a few years younger, and I'm just stuck in torment in my head. I want to love my girlfriend for who she is, but whenever I think about someone, it always ties back to the other. I don't feel like I can talk to anyone about this, cause I don't wanna seem creepy or lustful or be called out on being a dirtbag for thinking about other women. I also am just not good at talking, I don't like doing it in real life. All I want to know is if that makes me a bad person. Am I the bad guy?