I (19 female) have been dating my boyfriend Dan (19 male) for two years, and I'm thinking about breaking up with him because he jerked off to his celebrity crush and is addicted to p*rn.

A few months ago, we were hanging out with his family, and he mentioned he had a celebrity crush. His sister and I started guessing who it was, and he said he was following her on Instagram. We both went through his following, and I noticed that he was following a lot of p*rn stars and OF models. Eventually, he told us who she was, and we both looked at her Instagram. I immediately noticed that he had liked a lot of her s*xy pictures, mostly bikini pics and provocative poses. Later, when we were alone, I jokingly mentioned how different we looked. He then mentioned that I would look more like her if I had dyed my hair, and then said that I should.

I went home and found all the inappropriate pictures and videos he was liking and all the p*rn stars he was following. I felt sick and started to develop issues with my appearance, and lost a lot of self-confidence, especially after he suggested I should dye my hair. I tried talking to him about my concern, mentioning how uncomfortable the whole situation felt and how it affected the way I viewed myself. He apologized and blocked the celeb crush. I then asked if he had ever j*rked off to any pictures of her or those models. He told me that he would never do that and got pretty offended when I asked him.

The amount of p*rn*graphic content he continued to engage with over the next few months was extremely concerning. I found open tabs of p*rn in his phone, dozens of pictures, videos, and thirst traps. It got so bad that my brother even sent me screenshots of him liking bikini pics. (I want to mention that I'm not anti-p*rn, and think it okay to watch every once in a while) I was just extremely disappointed that he was interacting with so much of it, even after talking to him about how his actions affected me. I asked him every few weeks if he had ever j*rked off to pictures of his celeb crush. Dan continued to deny it and even yelled at me a few times for mentioning it.

One day, we were playing a game with his family, the question was "who would you use as your celebrity personal play thing?" Dan immediately said her name, his family thought it was funny, but I was pretty uncomfortable, especially since I had voiced my concerns about this situation several times. His family was confused as to why I didn't think it was funny. I later left the party, and we started fighting in my car. Dan claimed that he didn't know what the big deal was, that I was being overdramatic, ridiculous over a joke. I then had to re-explain how his actions had hurt me. Then I asked if he had ever j*rked off pictures of her. He yelled at me, saying that he would never do that, and I left. I later found out that he lied to his friends and family about the whole situation and told them that I was overdramatic and just trying to start a fight.

We got over that fight, but I still had that sick feeling in my gut. I started looking into therapy and found a therapist to try and help me get over my insecurities, since I thought I was genuinely making up all this irrational stuff in my head. One night, we were fighting, and he brought up how annoying it was when I asked him if he had ever j*rked off to pictures of her before. I then sent him screenshots of him liking and following p*rn stars, even sending pictures of the bikini pics of his celeb crush. He then admitted he was addicted to wathcing p*rn and that for the first year of our relationship, he was watching it constantly and had even j*rked off to pictures of his celeb crush. I was extremely hurt not just by him watching so much of this type of stuff, but also that he had lied to me about it for so long. Dan gaslit and manipulated his friend's family, and I for so long that I thought I was crazy when I was right the whole time.

We are still together, but it hurts to think about it. Please be honest am I the asshole?