Me(22f) and my boyfriend (23m)have been together for about 6 months and I recently went to his place for the first time and want to end things with him now.

I was on my way to do a at home movie date with my boyfriend at his place for the first time. The GPS told me to turn left and it led me to an old run down trailer. Right when I pulled in he came out onto his patio and started walking towards my car with a big smile. I awkwardly smiled back and turned my car off. I quickly sent my location to my mom and sister just in case because it kind of gave jeepers creepers.

When I slowly walked into his place I was immediately hit in the face with the smell of cat urine. He grabs my hand to lead me to his room and I see a dead cockroach in the middle of the floor. He tries to get me to lay on his bed which reeks of mildew. I politely decline and continue to scan his room. Crumbs on the floor, cans everywhere, decaying and water damaged walls with mold, dirty pillows, crumbs and cat hair on his sheets,gnats, takeout cups and containers everywhere and the list goes on and on. But what made it worse was the fact that my missing sock that i’ve been looking for was next to his pillow paired with Jergens lotion… I felt physically sick. He tries to touch on me but it now makes my skin crawl. He keeps trying and trying to initiate sex but I just wanted to get out of there.

I tell him I need to use the bathroom just so I can text my mom and tell her to call me so I can have a reason to leave. There were 3 additional dead roaches near his shower, dried pee on the toilet seat and a FLOATING TURD IN THE TOILET. I felt super nauseous and walked out, he was standing outside the door waiting for me and I told him I had to go, he tried to persuade me to go back to his room with him and tried to force himself on me and was kissing me and my whole body went into fight or flight so I just pushed him off and left.

He’s been blowing my phone up but I haven’t text him or spoken to him since. I honestly feel disgusted with myself because I have been intimate with him and now I feel dirty after seeing his place. I feel like someone’s room/personal space is a reflection of their mind. And I just feel that he has bigger fish to fry than trying to get his rocks off let alone be in a relationship. I view him in such a different light now, and honestly can’t see myself being able to continue being in a relationship with him.

And what I find funny is the way he often always critiqued my cars cleanliness when my floor mats had grass on them, you would think he was a neat freak. He works in the food industry which makes me feel more nauseous because he’s dealing with peoples food. I know I shouldn’t have just ghosted him and I will talk to him regarding this but am I really wrong for doing it and feeling that I should end the relationship? I value cleanliness and adequate hygiene, so this is a no go for me. So AITAH?