I (18F) have been friends with this girl (19F) for about a year now and its been amazing - she gets me and I feel like I can tell her everything. Well except for one thing - my new crush.

Even though I said we've been friends for a year its not exactly the truth - for most of this time we have flirted and had meet ups one could call dates, had vaguely romantic sleepovers (as tiktok would call it - we were in a 'situationship'). However sometime in January I confronted myself, and then her, and told her that this isn't what I want and drew a line. I could tell she was upset and hurt and I cant blame her because Ive basically led her on for half a year.

Since then our relationship has changed - not for better, not for worse - it just differentiated. We're best friends and to be honest I can tell both me and her are very comfortable right now with how things are.

Nevertheless, about a month ago I think I fell for a girl in another class. Shes amazing, pretty and I feel my heart start to beat louder whenever I see her - y'know the usual stuff lol. I want to talk about her and most importantly I would like for the second closest person to me to also know about my feelings. However with our past im anxious it would get awkward or worse, fast.

I want to share this part of me with her, but I feel like it would hurt her and reopen some wounds. Am I being paranoid?