To clarify of first things is this job is very supportive, pays well, and has no real challenges throughout the average day of simple tasks. EX: “cleaning floors, checking on papers, & customer service” etc. The main reason I am ask around to anyone who could be in this area is mostly around any other rural communities if this is a common thing or if it is just only my mental problems from the very beginning as a child.

As how I first got this job it was more so a “last chance” situation around like I said there are not many job around this rural community in general and for most other jobs I may (at the time) had to drive over 50 miles just to get to such work. Whereas my current job is only 30 miles even less if I go into work earlier. So off the bat I knew I was only meant to be taking the job as only a helper from the beginning and to support only when they needed me in case of any emergency (vacation days from a co-worker, busy floors, natural disasters. Etc.) just for a lower cut payment of a bi-weekly paycheck as well to top that off. After one year later the main staff noticed how loyal I was to this and find my talents useful it was not until in 2023 where things slowly gone off the rails.

My old manger was retiring for 14 years working at this hospitality place and has decided to go live their life off to more supportive family business. It did deeply and emotionally break my heart knowing that the new manager would be the last person of my co-workers to take the role and “lead” the space. As for more context we also lost two other co-workers due to health and family dynamic after the pandemic was slowly clearing up. So instead of only working the part time 3 to 4 days. I was promoted to working full time 5 to sometimes 7 days per week with a gain of almost 100 hours in two weeks. This was seen by the main supervisor and they offer this role to me as such of why I mentioned the praise I got before.

It has been almost 2 years now since I work with this new manager who was once just a simple co-worker and I am slowly going insane. Barely does any help around any duties, yes overtime we have grown new co-workers. However they too are following in the manger’s footsteps. I’m trying my hardest to find any other career job whether it be work from home or some other places but all of them are not showing around. On top of that most of my co-workers are now accusing me of bad aggressive behavior which is why I’m asking for help on this. I know as a child who is autism side of things and has bad mental issue of PTSD. There are things I am trying to cope with in a healthy way to make sure I am calm enough for work.

The bigger part is that is this just in my mind playing games and that I am an ass for acting this way making a big deal or should I stick to my real truths and just leave this community and job for good? Again at this point I am at my end of the road and I have no clue what to do or say at all.