I immediately am getting concerning vibes off this entire thing, and try to convince my friend that we both wait in her car before my bf can come pick us up. She gets very mad at this and throws the " I'm doing this for you!" And ATP I just go with it while trying to contact my bf on an almost dead phone, bc I want to go home not some after party at some strangers home. And she takes my phone then drags me with her and all of these people I've never met before into this giant van. And I'm already having a panic attack, but we get there and things are fine. They make food, they set up a karaoke machine, which my friend immediately takes over and sings several more songs. And I'm just sitting here completely dissociated with reality. Like everything feels as tho it is a dream, I don't sleep at all, I'm paranoid. And my bf managed to come down here, and she got so mad at me. Saying things like "I did this for you, you never go out, you never socialize, and I told you we'll go home when I say we will" and she doesn't give me my phone back then calls him on her phone saying I'm acting stupid, and just being annoying. When mind you, I've said absolutely nothing I'm being quiet as possible. And he hangs up with her and goes back home, and then she finally gives me my phone back. then goes outside to make out with the bouncer and I'm just trying to make sure I don't pass out bc anything can happen ATP.

So finally fast forward a few hours, and I'm making sure not to sleep in the car as we drive back home. And we finally get home I just go inside and sleep but for the next three days I am completely disconnected with reality, it wasn't until the fourth day where I finally felt like okay, I'm home, this is real, everything that happened is real, this isn't a dream.

So fast forward a month later, and I think its time to finally try a new hairstyle. I'm not one to do this btw, but I really wanted to give curly hair a try. So I'm excited, but I end up messaging that same friend to come down and help me with it. Well she gets here, and I'm excited had my hair cleaned and wet, and got the new products out. And she sits on my bed and immediately wants to go on my social media, including my Instagram which I've not been on for years. And she just goes through my chats and I'm asking her questions and she brushes me off, and just goes through all my chats instead. And my excitement is kind of dying out, my hair is drying out, so I finally get annoyed and tell her it's time to do my hair. she finally puts my phone down and helps me out, and I'm excited because omg, this is my first time. But after she's done helping me, she just gets up and leaves doesn't even want to chat with me anymore. So I sleep with it in, and the next day I take it out once my hair was fully dried. I'm okay with this, it looks alright, and I send her a picture.

She got very angry with me, and said I'm supposed to leave curlers in for 3 days, and I don't know anything about hair but ppl on yt seemed to say you can do a 3hr all the way to a 24hr with curlers. So I start to feel bad bc it looked great to me, but evidently my friend is angry with it. Well, when she gets off work, she decides to come to my home and do my hair again and she sprays the ever living hell out of my hair with hairspray. I'm visibly choking and coughing and she says "beauty is pain, and women need to go through it to look great for their men", and my bf wasn't here but when I told him when he got home he got very angry. Well, now I'm having breathing issues and I, it's been going for about two weeks now. have chemical burns inside my throat according to my Dr and dentist. So I cannot get any acting gigs voice or physical acting I'm now on a temporary inhaler.

Now let's fast forward to finally just last week, when we go to a sunset market. It's like a nice little place people set up shops, for food or jewelry, clothes, ya know that thing. I kind of don't want to go, but she begs me to come with her. And so I do, I can't breathe, can't do too much exercise let alone walk a certain distance, but ig fine I'll try and be there for my friend. She demands my bf to come with us, and he eventually does but he hits social anxiety bad in crowded spots. Well the entire time I'm choking, coughing, struggling to breathe scratching my throat bc she's moving so fast and demanding I catch up to her. She then tells me to shut up, and stop acting, and that I'm creating problems out of nothing. She then mocks and makes fun of me, and that I went and smoked crack with homeless guys, as we pass them. My bf thinks this is just banter and he laughs as she does this, but I'm getting annoyed, very upset, and decided I'd go home and they can have a nice day bc I cannot breathe, and she's coming off as hella rude. So she gets mad and takes off somewhere, and as I get home with my bf trying to explain like that wasn't normal banter, that actually felt like real digs and she was being rude.

She whips by us and gives my bf food, and says that I'm just trying to ruin their night like I ruined her night when we went to that party. My bf doesn't take the food and instead helps me go inside the home and we close the door. And he apologizes, bc he works with her and they banter in the back of the kitchen he didn't think it was that bad. So we decided to officially cut her off, not hang out with her, or talk to her much, and he even encourages me to get back into my practice. And I've honestly felt happy with this decision, I got to heal a bit better this week and by next week I should be off the inhaler, I will have to stick to a liquid diet and nothing spicy or hot but we got some good news from my Dr and dentist that it's healing and clearing up a lot. Within another two weeks I'll be able to heal, and this friend has sent me some messages asking if I'll go to church with her, or if I'd like to go to a gathering I haven't read any of them, I do feel bad though. Bc I get I don't know a lot about friends, but I truly don't feel as tho she was ever there for me as a friend, but again as someone who grew up friendless maybe I am being the dickwad to her? Idk if I should tell her I don't want to hang out with her anymore, or if I should just not respond or say anything. Bc it was so nice to feel like I had a friend but, she is not the way that she claimed she was and has been completely opposite. So I feel unsure if this is the right choice.

End of part 2