I dont know if this will reach out to anyone since i only want to vent about this and get it all out. Im a student still in school and i am currently studying all science based subjects. I have 2 other friends, who both do more humanities subjects, who i shall call X and Y in this case. They r what i consider two of my closest friends ive ever had in my life. Ive known them throughout my years at this school and got to hang out with them almost everyday for the past 2.

However, an issue had occued where my friends feel "ignored" because i apparently i am acting annoyed at them?? For the last few weeks ive been just feeling miserable be it school work or just my classmates that just piss me off (i literally hate everyone in my classes), but now they say that im just really quiet and sad all the time. At breaks or lunch i sit with them usually and they talk about all the fun stuff they've seen of tik tok or something brain rot and i genuinely dont find them that funny. If theres something that i dont understand what theyre on about i feel "left out".

X says they feel sad because recently she was acting all cringy and trying to get me involved to try and get me happy which i just wasnt in the mood to join in at all plus i wasnt feeling well.

Y on the other hands says that they arealso sad. One example, they made fun of my chair i sat on and i apparently responded annoyingly which i clearly remember i didnt??? And sometimes i cant help but give them a side eye but i dont actually mean anything harmful by it.

Recently, they all confronted me through a groupchat about it and i told them all i could about how i felt about being "not relatable" and "left out" but they just seem to not get it. I told them after that we just need a break from eachother for the time being.

If theres anyone that read all of this, thank you. And if you could tell me what i could do to clean up this mess? Or if i did the right thing?