My BF 26M made me 24F look at him differently after going thru his phone for the first time. I'm heartbroken from what I found on my boyfriend's phone. We were together for almost 1 year. He is non asian, every girl he dated was asian (I'm an asian girl). But I gave him the benefit of the doubt because we both live in Bay Area (north California), so I figured the reason is because the Asian community is big here. I won't get into much details on what I saw in his phone. All was Asian s*xual related content. From different sites. I never checked his phone but one day I had a gut feeling to do it. I also saw the browser history. Let's just say it made me really sick and I had a panic attack. I don't want to say more about it. I still want to throw up and cry when I remember his fetish searches. In real life he treated me like a princess, he’s so sweet and caring, attentive, always makes sure I’m happy. So imagine my surprise when his phone had content like degrading Asian women, disturbing “kinks” relating to Asian women, and more. My first reaction I was shaking really bad and felt nauseous. I want to ask him if this is a porn addiction but most people told me he would deny it? People have said i shouldn't have gone thru his phone without permission but what I found is worse than me checking his phone, so I feel justified. How do I make the conversation for him to be fully honest with me? I have never been in this situation so I’m lost and confused. I love him so much and I know he loves me but this is something I’m not okay with.