Aith for pressing charges against my ex after our relationship? (Trigger warning: abuse)

I’m a 20-year-old female, and my ex is also 20. We were high school sweethearts who dreamed of building a life together. At first, everything seemed perfect, but a few months into our relationship, I began to notice a shift in his behavior. He started being verbally abusive, calling me names and belittling me, which I mistakenly attributed to my own inadequacies. As we moved in together, his treatment of me only worsened.

Around the time I discovered I was pregnant, I desperately hoped that this news would bring us closer and change his ways. Initially, he was thrilled about the pregnancy, but things quickly deteriorated. As my pregnancy progressed and we moved to a new place seeking more space, the abuse escalated dramatically. It went from emotional mistreatment to physical violence—he slapped, punched, and even head-butted me. I felt trapped, believing that if I left, he would follow through on the threats he made about harming himself or others.

I experienced multiple pregnancies but tragically lost the babies due to the stress and abuse I endured. My first child nearly didn’t survive because of the constant violence. The I'm breaking point came during a particularly brutal argument when he told me to end my own life. He had said many other hurtful things, and I can recall one incident where he physically dragged me back into our apartment when I tried to leave. The fear of what he might do if I stayed became overwhelming, and I ultimately knew I had to leave for the sake of my life and my children.

I sought refuge at a friend’s place that night, and the following morning, she encouraged me to go to the police to ensure my safety and that of my children. I had documented evidence of my injuries—videos and photos showing the bruises and notably large handprints on my back. Am I the asshole?