Since July I’ve(20F) felt kind of unsatisfied with my life, at the point where even all the friends I’ve made until now (and my current boyfriend, and my whole family) just started to piss me off. At the end of August I’ve moved out and gone into a different country, the first months it was very difficult to find someone to be friends with but then I’ve started free diving and made a group of friends in the same field. However I’ve just shoved down this feeling. Until recently where I’ve asked my boyfriend for a pause(just to figure myself out, and since I also don’t feel sexual attraction towards him I’ve felt for him before), and my friends back home started to realize how I feel and say that I seem distant and show apathy. Am I just an asshole or can this be explained in some way? One of my friends told me that it could also be a hormonal change caused by my birth control pill. I genuinely want to stop feeling this way.