I was in a relationship with a woman who would often cancel plans at the last minute. She used to say I didn’t love her, that I would eventually get tired of her, and sometimes she’d tell me to find someone else. At the same time, she would complain that I wasn’t going to see her, and when I said I was planning to go, she'd say her room was a mess.

Whenever I tried to talk about anything, she would respond, “If you don’t like it, I’ll leave.” She also tried to make me jealous by saying other people were asking if she was single.

One day, she blocked me on WhatsApp but sent me a text message saying she missed me. Then her mother called me asking what had happened and if I still had feelings for her daughter. After that, my ex called me and invited me to her mother’s party. Later, she sent me another message saying she loved me, that she missed me more than she expected, and asked if I wanted to come over.

I refused, and she told me that I had abandoned her — that the choice was "MINE." She asked if I was happy with my decision, said she had given up on the idea of us getting back together, and asked me not to send her any more messages so she wouldn’t get false hopes. She told me I had taken away her happiness and that she wanted it back.

All of this has left me deeply confused, to the point where I feel like I’m on the edge of doing something harmful to myself. I went through a relationship full of contradictions and emotional instability on her part. I ended things, but now I don't know if it was the right decision, and each day the thought of ending my own life gets stronger. I honestly don't know what to do anymore.

She showed jealousy, pushed me away, suggested I find someone else, didn’t want to share social media, didn’t want my presence, broke promises, got irritated at anything I said, and disappeared every time I opened up about my feelings. I truly don't understand what I did wrong — my feelings for her were real, and it's complicated. Every time I tried to see her, there was always an excuse.

Sometimes she would try to make me jealous, even encouraging me to download dating apps, and after we broke up, I actually found her on those very apps.

There was one time when she told me she wasn’t going to a party, so I said I’d go to church instead. Suddenly, she changed her mind and decided to go to the party. When I talked to her about it, she insisted I should go to church while she went to the party. I told her that if she didn’t want me to go with her, she could’ve just said so — and she said I had hurt her.

I asked if I could go to her place earlier to spend some time with her before the party, but she didn’t want me to. Even so, I bought her two chocolates and waited for her outside. Her sister saw me and invited me in. She introduced me to her friends as her boyfriend, and yet later that same day, during the party, out of nowhere she said, “Let’s download a dating app and find you a hot girl!”