was dating a woman who would cancel plans at the last minute, tell me that I didn't love her and that I would eventually get tired of her. She would tell me to find someone else, complain that I wasn’t going to see her, and when I said I would go, she'd say her room was a mess. Whenever I commented on anything, she'd say, "If you don't like it, I'll leave."

Besides that, she would try to make me jealous by saying people were asking if she was single. Then she blocked me on WhatsApp and sent me a text message saying she missed me. After that, her mom called me asking what had happened and if I still loved her daughter. Later, my ex called inviting me to her mother’s party.

Finally, she sent me a message saying she loved me, missed me more than she expected, and asked if I wanted to come over. I refused, and she said I had abandoned her — that it was "MY" choice — and asked if I felt happy about my decision. She told me she had given up on the idea of us getting back together and told me not to message her so she wouldn't get false hopes. She said I had taken away her happiness and she wanted it back.

Honestly, I’m so confused that I’m almost doing something really stupid with my life. I went through a relationship full of confusing and contradictory situations from her side. I ended up breaking up, but now I’m not sure if it was the right thing to do. Every day the feeling of ending my life gets stronger. I honestly don’t know what to do anymore. Her actions were full of contradictions, jealousy, and emotional distance, and she always justified it as insecurity.

I feel terrible and lost. I didn’t want to go through this, and I’m afraid I might end up doing something reckless. She suggested I find someone else, didn’t want to share her social media, didn’t seem to want me around, never honored her commitments, and got stressed over anything I said. She would disappear after I opened up about my feelings.

I don’t even know what I did wrong to her, because my feelings for her were real. It’s complicated. Whenever I tried to see her, she’d come up with excuses. Sometimes she’d try to make me jealous, even encouraged me to download dating apps — and after we broke up, I found her on those same apps.

There was even a time when she said she wasn’t going to a party, so I said I’d go to church. Then she suddenly decided to go to her friend’s party, and when I talked to her about it, she kept insisting I should still go to church while she went to the party.

I ended up telling her that if she didn’t want me to go with her, she could’ve just told me. She said I hurt her. I asked if I could come over earlier to spend some time together before the party, but she didn’t let me. I still went there, bought two chocolates, and waited for her outside. Her sister saw me and invited me to come up, and she introduced me to her friends as her boyfriend. But later that same night, out of nowhere, she said: "Let’s download an app and find you a hot girl?" right in the middle of the party.