I had a previous post abt this topic but it feels like no one is truly understanding why I feel the way I do.

Me and my bf are long distance. My love language which I've mentioned to him is act of service. I love when people noticed the smallest details about me and I love when they act on that.

I've mentioned to him for month continously that the only thing I look foward to is love letters and flowers.

I've only received love letters and flowers 2x the whole 9 months.

I've tried to let it go but it hurts because I keep asking for it. It's make mee feel seen when people who I love do these for me especially coming from my significant other.

Today I know thay he was sending me flowers because the week before I brought up the topic thay for 9 month ived only gotten flowers 2x and I would appreciate it if he made the small effort of getting them for me.

Today he kept saying Today I a special day and I knew he was getting me the flowers. I was really excited especially thag I knew they would come after my finals this afternoon.

However when I got the flower box they unfortunately came broken. The leaves were all over the floor but it still was heartfelt because he wrote me a beautiful note. However I am still disappointed, I had so much high hopes for these flowers.

I felt like my boyfriend pick that flowers placed based on the price and not the quality. Funny thing is that we argued abt this sometimes to the point I call his "Julius Rock"- iykwim.

Whenever I ask him why he dosnt get me flowers he always say he just forget or he doesn't know. And when I ask him if it's money he says no and that he has money.

I always tell him look I rather u save up 20 buck per paycheck (he gets paid bi-weekly) and at the end of the month u get me a flower. If not every month may be at last every 2 month.

I felt like he look at the price of the flowers and just decided "it will do". And this hurt because rn I left my job for another one and is the hiring state but whenever my mom send me money I save that money for him to get him the things he lime especially thay his birthday is coming up. Shoes, perfume, earing etc... Even recently he cut his hair and ik he wanted waves I spend my last dime getting him the specific wave cap he wanted.

It's just like if I can do all this for you while I don't have much of a job why can u sacrifice 50 buck to get a good quality flower that will last me at least 2 weeks? I felt like he pick the cheapest flower he can find and now I end up with no flower and he ended up loosing that money (because the flowers came broken the the leaves picked)

I felt very sadden and cried because all I wanted was a nice pair of flowers after month and month of never received any after continously begging for them. And it made me feel worse because these were the only thing I was looking foward to after taking my finals.

Am I being dramatic? How else can I explain to him why I am hurt.