Am I the ahole for liking the same boy as my best friend

Ok so I was stuck on my ex and and my ex crush we can call them Marcco and Jaxon and I've been trying to get over them both for the past few months Jaxon just got into a new relationship with someone and Marco is still single but I broke up with him because I liked Jaxon (I broke up with him because him and Jaxon are friends and that's just weird asf not because I wanted to date Jaxon) so I don't think Marco would want me back even though he hints at it anyways

In the quest to get over them both I tried to branch out to others this included two other boys we can call them Zamari and david. My friend offered to pmo with david but I declined because I don't want to be in a relationship with him because he is my friend and he dtm a lot of the time. But on the other hand Zamari I like. We had just came back from spring break and I had forgotten about Zamari bur when I got back to school I had my eyes on Marco but still had Zamari in mind. I was changing for pe when my friend starts talking about how she was upset the day before but then she texted Zamari and she felt all better smiles and All.

Trying to be a good friend I haven't told her and I tried to put her on with zamari. He said he doesn't like her. But before you say I was sabotaging I only told him who I was talking about because he wouldn't cooperate and I told him that I don't know if he fr likes her I just think they would be cute tg. Me and zamari have been text since Friday it is now Sunday and im falling for him more and more I really like him but I don't know what to do and I don't want to tell anybody but aitah and can you guys give me suggestions

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