I know from the title it sounds like I’m not or maybe it does depending on the person but two days ago my boyfriend texted me at 10 am and I had literally only just been awake for five minutes before then and we were planning on going out, but then I couldn’t so then he started shouting at me over text and I got pissed off and told him to not get pissy at me and then ignored him for the rest of the day,

but then he sent me a text message and I didn’t read what it said because I was ignoring him But a minute later he started spamming me and I saw what he was saying and he was apologising saying he didn’t mean what he said and he takes it back. I asked him what he said and he wouldn’t tell me so I guessed that he wanted to break up. I asked if he wanted to and he said yeah that’s what I said, but I don’t mean it anymore and I want to make it better. Can we please talk? I completely ignored him for the rest of the day because I was already annoyed at the fact that he was screaming at me at 10 am when I had literally only just woken up and then he wanted to break up with me

truthfully I’ve wanted him to break up with me for a while because he is one of those really insecure people who could possibly kill themselves over a break up so I didn’t wanna be the person who would break up with him and so because I was ignoring him. He took it into a group chat with my friends where he would then started spamming the group chat asking if I could respond to the messages my friends obviously got confused and asked what happened which then he proceeds to say That he said he wanted to break up but then changed his mind.

I was half swiping this group chat so I was reading everything he said and I actually got really annoyed at the fact that he told them because it’s none of their business and this isn’t even the first time he did this And I genuinely hate how he always brings things into group chats where they have absolutely no business being in because it makes it seem like have a relationship and our relationship problems as spectacles for everyone to see

I said that maybe we should break up and ever since then he’s been spamming me or ignoring me and he’s going to other people to text me to try and talk me out of it which I also didn’t appreciate but I don’t think I’m really in the wrong because when I said that I wanted him to break up with me, it’s not just cause I got bored of him.

It’s because I started to hate myself because of him. I started cutting myself and I stopped eating after I’ve been clean for at least a year and not to mention the fact that I tried to kill myself because of him because he loves to undermine everyone’s feelings and only make people think about him and how he feels all of the time, even when he makes other people hate themselves to make him feel better and so with all of these things I really did just want to break up but he’d already met my family and we’ve been together for a really long time, so I also just kind of didn’t want to throw all of that away

but he’s been spamming me for the past three days trying to make it better but I just kind of wanna get this over with. I’ve been telling him that I don’t control his decisions and he does whatever he wants but yesterday I just said maybe we should and then he started spamming me saying that he that he’s sorry he didn’t mean it and all of that all over again as if he didn’t text me at the night before but also I’m kind of scared that if I do genuinely break up with him, he’s going to kill himself because he’s so overly sensitive it’s not even funny.

He literally cries over sarcasm and I’m not even exaggerating about that once jokingly she said I love you and I said I would love me too, and he hung up the call turned off his phone put his on do not disturb and wouldn’t text anyone for the entire day after then he sent me a picture of him crying and once he also sent me a picture of self harm after I said a joke I’ve talked to him about this so many times talking about how it’s unbelievably triggering for me because I have dealt with things like this before but he continues to do it but then make everyone turn against me when I do something that he doesn’t like like making jokes if you’re reading this you might think the jokes are really distasteful or hurtful or offensive like one of those mean girls back in school calling you ugly and fat and saying that you don’t deserve to live and then just say it’s a joke no I mean like actual jokes like where it’s never that serious and you’re just having a little laugh with your friends like I said he said I love you and I said I would love me too. That is the kind of jokes I mean and when I told all of this to him yesterday he said that he wished I told him about this before and that how he didn’t mean it and it would be okay, but I don’t want it to be okay. I wanted to be over and I don’t know how to tell him but I think I will break up with him tonight.