Okay so I’m 18, female I’ve got autism too this is also a big part in it. ( dyslexia so sorry)

So I have this friend group three girls three boys, these this one boy who makes me uncomfortable like really uncomfortable.. I told my friends ( the girls as I’ve known them longer ) so anyways my main friend was saying I am the ass ans mean for not likening him or feeling comfortable with him, and she doesn’t care what he says or dose to me only with her sister ( her twin the other friend) I was like oh fair I’m not that close to my siblings so maybe that’s what they do just care about each other and not the friend) so I kinda dropped it there, as he doesn’t have a family so he doesn’t understand social cues apparently that’s what they said.

I’ll start naming what he has done to make me feel uncomfortable

So one time we was shopping we was 16 then and he tapped me to show me bars and it’s normal but we wasn’t that close then, I didn’t class him as a friend… ya know??

And this other time it was raining and we was sat under an umbrella, my friend didn’t care she joked that she felt like “our kid” and then he looked at me and said “wait that means we did it…” I was really uncomfortable that I went quiet and zoned out, kinda went back in to myself and wanted to go back to bed and sleep and never talk to anyone again.. I waited out though cus it would have been weird if I went.

My friend and I talked bout this again she said it was weird but I need to stop overreacting and I am an ass for not wanting to hang out with him, so i thought i was and kept that to myself.

This other time, I’ll like to say he doesn’t go by his real name.. but I know it. So he dressed go like this cartoon character and I jokingly called him the name for him to look at me dead in my eyes and tell me not to call him by his real name again.. it’s not his real name.. so I was like I’m so sorry and I felt bad all day and I couldn’t get it off my mind, I kept on thinking bout it until I got home and went to.

Talked to my friend bout this again she said if could be my autism too that’s making me feel awkwardly as I don’t have lots of friends and I get that it’s a small thing but I felt bad that I could have made him sad.

I started to put my foot down and say if he goes out with the group I’m not coming no more they said okay don’t we don’t care.. so I stopped for a while and I felt bad so I went back out with them but I sent the rule back out if he hangs out I won’t come out again with them, I’ll only hang out when he isn’t there.

Now I know I am probably the ass cus he has no family so he probably doesn’t know he is making me uncomfortable so.. yeah. I’m starting to think it is my autism as I am just as awkward at responding to me and I’ll say sorry so many times and overthinking everything