I was in a relationship with my girlfriend for 5 months, during that time, she lied to me multiple times and got caught as I knew the truth beforehand and wanted her to say it on her own, but she didn't, she apologized for it all and was actually genuinely apologetic, I also got to know that she's been sharing things about what's happening in her home and ranting basically or asking for advice from her other 2 boy friends and I was okay with it till I got know that they are getting to know stuff which I had no idea about, i confronted her about this and she was very genuinely apologetic about this too (she has on multiple ocassion said that she wants me to be the first person to know about things concerning her so that hurt alot because at one point i was feeling so special and at another utterly broken), on my birthday, she invited one of the boy friends to meet without asking me or without me having any prior knowledge about it till we met the same day, i did not even invite my bestfriend because I wanted us to get some private time but she invited that friend of hers without even asking if I'd be okay with it or not and I was just supposed to okay with it and again she was very apologetic, there have been 1 or 2 more incidents like this and I have forgiven her for all of this, but throughout all of this, I don't feel the same way as I used to, I don't love her the same, I don't no longer have that passion inside in me to write her long paragraphs whenever I used to feel that strong about her and safe to say I haven't felt that strong about her since the incident of her sharing things happening at home (very personal) and ranting to those other two boys while I didn't know anything, it's been 3 weeks since that incident and I have been hoping to get those feelings back for her again but I cannot, the other option except to try and get back those feelings was to break up. so yesterday I realised that those feelings are gone for good, I still love her, but not as much or how I did the day before the telling others personal things before me event happened, she loves me very much and that is evident but for the last 3 weeks I haven't felt the same way I used to feel about her, I also have an overwhelming guilt in me that I left her, she has been going through a lot in her home and she often says how I came into her life as hope to live, she is very loving but since these incidents I think I lost my feelings for her, i've broken up with her already but I cannot remove this guilt of leaving her alone. I also want to share that this is my first relationship and I am not sure if I did the right thing or not.