Since the very beginning, when I first met my ex, she used to invite me over to have cake with her and her friends. Some time passed, and we ended up doing a video call — but she didn’t want to show her face, she never did, always saying her hair was a mess. Later on, I found out she had autism, according to what she told me.

Our conversations were often pretty one-sided. We once planned to meet at the park, but she canceled, saying she had hurt her leg. She also mentioned that I started treating her differently after she told me about her autism. She told me her ex had abandoned her, that she had been seeing another guy who left her for someone else.

One day, after I got mugged and nearly lost her number, I noticed how indifferent she was about it — she even said she wouldn’t text me unless I messaged her first. She used to talk about her cats and how her nephews were also on the autism spectrum. I remember she got really upset once when her cousin mentioned she used to drink with her ex.

Later on, I invited her to the movies because she had once said we’d probably never go out. At first, she said she wouldn’t go because she felt too shy, but after I insisted, she agreed — though the very next day she asked: "Wouldn't it be better if we just stayed friends?"

Anyway, we did go to the movies, met there, bought some candy, kissed during the film, and spent the whole afternoon together, acting like a real couple. She never let me see her phone and was always distant in certain ways. She only gave me her Instagram after we had already broken up.

Another time, we went to the mall — she bought me chocolate, and we ended up going to a motel. Once there, she told me she was too shy and didn’t want the lights on. I told her it was fine, but her mood changed pretty quickly and she became distant. After that, we left and I took her home.

Before that, we’d gone to the park and acted all romantic again, and when it was time for her to head home, I offered to walk her back. It felt clear she didn’t want me to meet her family. I dropped her off and went back home.

There was also a day when her sister came to drop her off at my place, and I accidentally mentioned that we never went out because she was always making excuses. She got really mad at me that day.

One time, we were playing a game together, and when I criticized the game, she got upset and stopped playing. She brought me chocolate again, we spent some time together, and shortly after, she brought up breaking up.

She invited me to a party to go with her, then later said she wasn’t going, and then changed her mind again and said she would. I got upset and asked if she didn’t want me to go with her. I told her I’d show up and asked if I could come a bit earlier, but she made it very clear I should only arrive at 6 PM.

I arrived a little earlier anyway, and her sister saw me on the street and invited me up. Later, we went to a party hosted by one of her friends, and she introduced me as her boyfriend. Out of nowhere, during the party, she said: "Should we download an app and find a hot girl for you?"

After the party, we went back to her place, and she wanted me to stay the night, but I ended up going home.

After all these ups and downs, I called her one day and broke up. She started crying and blocked me. Later, she said I had sent her to therapy (CAPS) and that I had taken away her happiness. Even after all that, she messaged me saying she missed me more than she thought she would.

We started talking again, but while we were chatting, I found her on a dating app. When I confronted her, she told me I should just find someone else. I got angry and questioned her, and she told me she was actually looking for her friend’s ex on the app.

In the end, I told her I loved her. She said the feeling would pass, and mentioned she'd gone somewhere and wished I’d been there. Later, she called me and invited me to her mom’s birthday party, but I didn’t go. Her mom even called me, asking if I loved her, and later invited me over for coffee.

We started talking again, but she told me her dad was furious with me, which made me feel awful. I vented online, and when she saw it, she accused me of deceiving and using her. She said she acted the way she did because of her insecurities and autism, that she prayed for me every day — and then she blocked me and disappeared.