My girlfriend (17f) and I (17f) have been dating for 2 months. We've known eachother since junior year and it's been on and off. Key factor, I have borderline personality disorder. Sometimes I get disgusted by my girlfriend and I don't know how to feel about that. Sometimes I love her too much and shower her with gifts and everything, but then sometimes I get bored of her and want to seek attention from other people (I've never done that, but I think about it.)

I've gotten emotions attached to her, she just know to much. Like why do you know my middle name you random person I decided to date? (I hate my middle name to the core) she even has the audacity to call me by it. I low-key get pissed. But I love her. The fuck am I meant to do about it?

Anywhuu, I don't know what to do man. This personality change is fucking with my head and I don't know what's real and what's not. Either send help or give good advice before I kill myself or her😭 I love her tho Am I the asshole?