this is my first time posting on here, and i just need people’s opinions. also, i dont know if reddit sensors things like how tiktok does, so im going to be replacing a few words with other things

so these past few months (about 2 months) ive started to smoke 🌲. not every day, just on the weekends when i have time to myself. my mom is okay with it (bc she does too) and we have a few ground rules: -i cant take it anywhere (not even to friends houses whos parents also let them) -im not allowed to go telling ppl -i cant do it on school nights -i have to keep it hidden so my siblings or dogs cant get to it

previously ive told my dad that ive taken an €d1ble at school and he didnt seem to care. he also sort of said he wouldnt care if i came home ⬆️ one day. a key thing: me and my dad both have bad adhd, and smoking helps quiet my brain more than my medicine does. im positive that my stepmom smokes 🌲 too, although they havent told me directly. ive gone into their room and smelled 🌲, ive seen smoke come out of her mouth, ive seen it charging on her bathroom counter, and i found a błųn+ on my dad’s dresser in his closet. he said he isnt allowed to smoke 🌲 bc of his job, and i sort of believe that but not really bc i found the błųn+ on HIS side of the closet. it kills me to keep secrets from him, but im not sure how he would react. do you think i should tell him??

EDIT: im nervous that he’ll tell my stepmom, and she kind of overreacts/is sensitive about some things. im worried that she’ll freak out bc she does about some things. (for example, my adhd meds make me not have a big appetite, and she lectured me about how i need to eat. she also constantly reminds me that im “skinny”.)

thank you so much for your opinion!!!