To put it short, I'm autistic, extremely depressed and socially isolated. Have been for the past 15 years. I have no friends, aspirations that are hard to get into, + my parents (mostly my mother) are very much anti animal.

I still live w/ my parents, HOWEVER, our "house" is just a big hunk of land with two houses that are only connected by a roof, leaving a sort of hallway that leads from the front yard straight to the back. I live on one side, my parents the other, except my side is more of where we put extra stuff like how people put their washing machines in the basement along with any other nic-nacks.

I used to have a pitbull named teddy when I was 12, and I believe it was one of the most happiest years of my life. We don't have him anymore because my mom said she'd leave if we didn't get him out (my dad wanted the dog). Same thing happened with the chickens we had before the dog. They refuse to take me to a counselor or specialist because it hurts their parental ego.

I have a routine I always follow to the tea every single goddamn day. Sleep. Wakeup. Get ready. Stay silent in school. Drive to the gym/workout in my room. Track calories/protein intake. Do homework. Draw. Sleep again.

As of now, I (16) secretly keep walmart meal worms in dry oatmeal and just feed them + watch them metamorphosis to stop my loneliness from spiking up even harder.

They rarely, if ever go to my side of the house unless its to wash clothes. I'm finding that craigslist is my best option for affordable pet care supplies aswell as animals in need of re-homing without the hassle of going to a shelter.

Would it be wrong of me to get "free roam" pet(s) w/o parent permission? I say pet(s) because, in most cases, animals need other animalistic companions.