So some important context to the story is my best friend and I live and work two jobs together. She doesn't have a car so its important to know we take my car everywhere together. She has a license but doesn't drive unless she feels its absolutely necessary. We have a coworker/mutual friend at one of our jobs who I've had feelings for quite some time. I'm 25(f) who has always been a bit of a homebody and I mostly stay out of the dating scene after some trauma a few years ago. She on the other hand is a sugar baby and tells me everytime she's talking to a new “ potential partner.

Recently this coworker of ours invited me to be his date to a wedding out of the country. So I tell him to print me off the passport paperwork like immediately. I learn a day or two later she is also suddenly working on getting her passport… At the time I'm not thinking much of it. He invited me. Us and a few other coworkers go out to eat. About 5 total. He and I are exchanging sushi. Cute shit. The three of us end up hanging out at his house. This is where things take a bad turn… Normally he and I sit on the 3 seater in front on the TV together and she sits on the loveseat to the side… Not this day. She decides she's gonna sit right in between us. Weird but I hadn't told her I liked him yet and she's an affectionate person so I chalked it up to not being able to read the room. At one point she gets up to use the bathroom and he scoots over into her spot and starts cuddling me. YAY GREAT MOMENT FOR ME RIGHT!?! He's caressing my arm and slowing inching towards my hand until we were just holding hands and cuddling for the rest of the movie… He has to pee.. And she moves into his spot… At this point I'm confused but I can't say anything. He comes back, sits in his new assigned seat and we throw on another movie. She then decides to cuddle him and hold his hand.. She later has him hold her until she falls asleep and anytime he tries to get up and sit with me she whines. When we left his house the next day I had confessed to her my feeling for this man. To which she replied “omg same. We can share him.” and I gave her a disapproving silence…

Well we hung out again last night. He came to our house this time and we watched a movie after we got dinner. He ended up sitting at the end of the couch with only one seat next to him.. And she made sure she got that seat and then leaned in and got comfy on him shortly after… Anyway now I don't know what to do. I feel like I need space but being that she has no car and we work together at both jobs. Same days same shifts. Not gonna happen. I don't know who to talk to about any of it. I don't want to talk to any of our mutual friends about it and seem like I'm talking shit about my best friend. I also can't exactly tell him without confessing my feelings. Which I don't think I'm ready for bc now I'm doubting he likes me if he's cuddling whoever is next to him😭. Someone send help its currently 6am and I haven't slept. I've been up all night crying.