OK, here’s the backstory me female 17 was best friends with this one girl older girl she was a junior and I was a sophomore. We got incredibly close. I got super super close to her family she had one younger sister and two brothers one that was in my grade and one that was in middle school I spent Christmas at their house, me and her brother the one in my grade were friends, but it was just hang out with her and once or twice. We hung out together just us and of course he was attractive like I definitely thought of him as in that way but 1 he had a gf 2, I just couldn’t do that to my best friend. 3 I didn’t think I was his type at all nor did I think I even had a chance with him. Anyways, me and his sister had a not a bad, but not a good falling out. When he had heard of it, he messaged me on snap because that’s the only contact we ever had besides like I called him once or twice, but never saved his number. He told me hey I just heard what happened what’s your side like? What happened? I talked to him. He told me that he like we’re still friends like you and me are good no matter what’s up with you and my sister and then from there we just snapped back-and-forth like not consistently but every day we had a streak just regular teen stuff anyways earlier this year or I guess last year in December he messaged me out of nowhere talking about how he wanted me and how he wanted to hang out and then he sent me a picture of his thing and I told him that he didn’t know what he was saying he was drunk like to just talk to me tomorrow and he was like I know exactly what I’m saying. I know exactly what I want. And the next morning after that whole conversation happened after I told him to go to sleep he did not talk to me at all the next day and I finally messaged him and he was like oh I’m sorry I was really drunk. I said oh it’s OK. I just wanted to make sure you were OK. And then from that night from there, we were just more consistently snapping and then one night he was talking about how he wanted to fuck me. And how he wanted to see me finally one night I snuck out to go see him and he put me in a very interesting situation with his friends it was just me and them, and we were getting very intoxicated and under the influence well then he literally asked me in front of his friends to give him head and if we wanted to go to the bathroom I told him no and I told him I wanted to go home. It was back-and-forth and then finally he took me home. And he talked to me. He was like you don’t wanna do it today or here because yeah low-key I did leave them on. I said a bunch of things in those messages. But I was not in the right mind to do any of that and his friends were being weird The next day he asked me to hang out again, just me and him I said yes. it was at night again. We smoked a blunt and I gave him head in his car in my neighborhood. He took me home and then we never talked again. Until my friend accidentally swiped into his chat on Snapchat while I was screen sharing and I said oh sorry, my bad he was like it’s OK and then three more weeks go by and he hits me up out of nowhere. He’s like hey are you trying to hang out tonight? I said no thanks. But we kept snapping and we exchanged nudes And he asked me to link I told him yes he said when I said, I’ll let you know and then two nights after my Snapchat got banned and I don’t have him on anything else and it just looks like I blocked him two days after my snap got banned l saw him for the first time ever since he does high school online and I never see him in person not even at the stores or anything. And we had the ACT and he had to come in and take it. Just my luck I parked right next to him without even realizing I turned to my left and I see him the second I recognize his face. I just put my seat down and I never actually make eye contact with him because by the time I got out of my car, the two parking spots in between us that were empty when I parked, got filled up by the time I got out of my car and I went in early, so I never saw him. but now I’m like completely attached to him. like I truly and like obsessed with him even though we never were anything he just knows me in so many ways. No one else knows me. He knew me the way his sister knew me and he also knows me away. No one else knows me. But I understand that’s to him. This is nothing this is a stupid hook up. He does when he’s drunk or on drugs it means absolutely nothing to him. He doesn’t say it, but his actions do. I'm just so involved bc like I care for him and it's just the closest thing I can get to what I wish we had even if it's just crumbs of attention like I just find so much comfort in it bc of his family and liek the history I just idk how to let go But he can't even be with me sober so wtf am l doing how do I let go? Does he care? Why doesn’t he care? Who does that? Why would he do that?

A few more details: I asked him what about your sister he said fuck her. She doesn’t have to know shit. He’s also low-key a bit of adruggie