Sorry for the bad English Tbh I sometimes get better and again I get back at 0 it’s like an endless loop I just can’t seem to get out is it like that I don’t want to get out of my sufferings . Am I habitual to it ? My past childhood trauma keeps on hounding me whenever I look at my parents i just keep on getting flashbacks plus I’m failing miserably in my studies. I want to get better but I just can’t seem to get out of it . I did a lot of messed up things I tried to find peace in substances but all these are temporary nothing seems to bring me peace and I am unable to move on . If you read it from here thanks and sorry for the long speech :) I hope someone can help me and I’m also negotiating should I go to a psychiatrist as it’s really expensive and I have to go on my own money as I can’t handle the drama on my house and if it’s much needed I will go as I want to get better . Hope someone can help me <3. P.S - I also got attached and when I love someone I can seem to unlove them .