Sorry in advanced new to reddit and this is the only tag I know . I (29f) have 3 kids .( 13m)(7f)(2m). Well my youngest two are always fighting like you'd think the age gap would help but they both act two . When I have one at time they are angels but the second they are together it is like a full blown cat fight . Now struggle with depression and and extreme general anxiety . But then constantly fight for the past few months is finally bothering me to the point of a full blown mental melt down . ( I have 3 kids and 3 dads I have reasons . My youngest son's father was my husband for 5 years and even helped raise my daughter. We are divorced now ) . I have a great fiance(35m) now who helps when he can but he works 3rd so he doesn't have much time to help me and I'm a stay at home mom . But I'm writing this in the moment. I feel like I'm crazy like looney bin crazy . I have feeling of being kinda off but at the same time I'm having feelings like I'm actually dying and I have this feeling like I need to drop my kids off with their fathers and either never come back or check myself into a looney bin because I'm mentally messed up . No I don't want to hurt my children . I don't want to cause harm to anyone . I just don't want to be around my kids and I have never felt this way before . I'm normally a very involved mom but recently I've had a lot of health issues and now this . Not sure if this belongs in AITAH . But maybe I am A butthole because I feel like the worst mom on planet earth right now .