I apologize in advance for the mistakes as I am writing through a translator. I'm from Russia and I'm 14 years old. We have three children in our family, my older sister is 36 and my brother is 35. They each have their own family. The sister has 2 sons and the brother has 1 daughter and 2 sons. His daughter (my niece) is the same age and are in the same grade. By the way, my brother was also a drunk but killed himself a few months ago. But let's go back to history. Ever since I was born, my father had been drinking alcohol before I was born. He weighs about 120 kilograms. All he does is eat and drink alcohol. Sports he doesn't care at all that his health is completely damaged and he doesn't even want to do anything about it. My mom and I do all the men's housework (fix something, plant a garden, change a light bulb), and he also believes that we must also do women's work (cleaning after him, washing dishes, doing laundry) all he can do is cook and eat most of the food he cooks himself. My mom hates him as much as he hates her (they can't get a divorce, for good reason). They literally always fight. Dad works from 7am to 1pm and mom works from 8am to 8pm and I'm at school from 8am to 3pm and after school I have extra classes so I get home around 9pm. He's the most at home and doesn't do anything during this time. And lately, my parents have been fighting even more. Mom didn't want to let us take us to school because alcohol made his brain run out. He could often get into the oncoming traffic and, in general, it's very unsafe to drive with him. Our children (I'm the oldest of all) were faced with a choice between mom and dad, in their case, between grandparents. We all tried to stay neutral. But I live in the house with him and I was the only one who heard their quarrels 10 times a day. I was afraid to go to school and come back from school I was afraid that I would come home and they would tell me that my dad killed my mom or vice versa. Because of all this, I couldn't be normal at school all the time, I tried to hold back my tears and moved away from my friends (I didn't tell them about our family and they still think I just don't want to be friends with them) Anyway, I was left all alone at school with no one to talk to and I hate my. And it's all my dad's fault.