Last week I found out my wife is pregnant again. The thing is I had a vasectomy I knew it was still a possibility until you get everything out but I thought it had been long enough.

When I found out she was pregnant I immediately assumed she cheated we got into a huge fight and she was getting more and more emotional/ hysterical. She swore she didn't but I'd had a vasectomy. I didn't believe her.

I left and got drunk and ended up basically revenge screwing some chick I met. Then today I went to the doctor to be sure. I was absolutely positive it would come back as shooting blanks and I would have proof that my wife cheated. I figured with the evidence she would admit it. I was still pissed and thinking of all the things I wanted to say to her.

My doctor unfortunately informed me that I can absolutely get someone pregnant right now. My heart immediately dropped and I pretty much ran to the car and got home as fast as I could to work on my apology.

When I got home my wife pretty much screamed and dropped to her knees. I didn't realize I had a hickey on my neck and now she knows what I did. She immediately started panicking and then blood started dripping out of her. I tried to help but she just kept screaming don't touch me and then started throwing up. I managed to get her to the hospital and she hasn't lost the baby yet but it's not looking good and she just keeps getting more and more upset.

Right now I'm not even allowed in the hospital her mom is basically guarding her door and her dad is kind of telling me what's going on but more in a " if she loses the baby he will kill me" kind of way.

I realize what I've done. I know she is never going to want me again. I know she is going to divorce me because of this. There is no way an apology will ever erase her seeing the hickey or knowing I slept with someone else. If she loses the baby she will never forgive me and I know that.

I have no idea what to do. I thought she cheated and I was broken. I just wanted to feel something other than pain. I should have listened to her but I didn't. I knew it was a horrible idea to fuck someone else but I fully believed there was no way the child was mine.

Idk what to do.