This is my first time writing on reddit and well, I needed a third person's pov

So I started college in mid 2023, and in the start I had quite the number of friends, even few months into college, I had many close friends, within all of them, there was this group I was so much more closer, and I started spending more time with them over a period of time

Over a long time, we all became quite close, but following which two of our friends started having a cold war due to a number of reasons and there was a slight divide in the group.

Now one point of information

I live with my parents, couldn't get a dorm yet due to vacancy issue and they all live on campus

So following the divide, I used to hang out with all of them, that is, we used to be together, but not as connected specially those two girls and their bestfriends (so I was uk the just there friend🥲), now I also ended up choosing a side, so it became a clear divide. (This was by sept Oct of 2024, and because these nina and sabrina, they were there for me)

Now earlier Nina and sabrina were not liked by most people for their nature to constantly cry and whine about everything, and they would constantly taunt me, for having other friends (in college and otherwise) but eventually they made two more friends, and started hanging out with other people too, and I never taunted them on this.

Now the main story, so my parents are not so chill that they will leave me out of house without permission all the time or late at night past 11 or so, and not live in dorm(when I don't have my own room),

1. so I would repeatedly request nina sabrina that if they make a plan a day before, please inform me, irrespective of it being confirmed or not.

That please make me a part of the discussion or at least inform the night before when you were making the plan , so I could inform my parents.

But they would never I mean never tell me, they will tell me 3 hours before going out, and force and emotional blackmail me to come, N if by chance I have prior commitment and I couldn't they would never shift it for me. (But they would for everyone else)

And I have conveyed it to them so many times, about how I feel unseen and unheard, and they promise to do better but they would never.

1. I have been there for them everytime I could during the daytime when I'm in college or when I can come at night, when they would cry over their breakups, situationship, family trouble, and so on. And if I can't stay with them I always make sure to text them.at night or call them up.

And I have shared so much about my fam troubles, cried to them, they would care only that minute or two but never check up on me later.

The other day I had a very bad fight with my boyfriend and I went to them n cried for 15-20 mins straight, they consoled me, but no message the whole day trying to see if I'm okay, n this was for one whole week.

So yesterday all this happened again and I asked them why they don't inform me or go little early so I'll be back by 10:30-11 to home, they gave me shittiest of excuses, as they always do,

So I told them how I felt in long long msgs. And not to meet me the other day, cause then I'll burst. So Sabrina still cornered me into talking that too not alone, with two other friends (I mean why involve them in our business) when my boyfriend stood a ft or more apart just so he can be there for me.

N I listed how they make me feel, how they shun me, how they have not been there for me, yes, did I shout, I did, I couldn't help it, I was crying and shouting cause I had tried the nicer ways, and no response, and I couldn't keep it in.

And I told her how she would accomodate for all her shitty friends, when they hurt her, but she doesn't wanna lose them. But she'll take me for granted,

She walked out of the Convo, and then 4 hours later after discussing with her "friends"(common friends) she sends a message how I'm the "worst friend one can have"