We have been dating for 6 years(very long distance), and a year ago I accidentally saw a text she sent about me to her best friend. Was literally just picking up her phone to set her alarm, wasn’t snooping bc I hate that. Her friend asked her if it was ok to have sex with other people while she’s dating a guy in an exclusive relationship, and my girlfriend replied “yeah that’s super fine, I was with like a million people when (insert my name here) and I started dating.” My head spun, heart sunk, and I confronted her about it the next day. She was super defensive and said it was “only one person”, but I could tell she was lying. I’ve never gotten closure because she refuses to talk about it, and I tried to move on.

Now I can’t. A year later and I don’t trust her at all. What should I do? She has been disinterested in sex recently and barely talks to me now. She also says me “why don’t you just break up with me then?” when we fight. If she wants to break up with me why doesn’t she do it?

Tl;dr-my girlfriend cheated on me at the beginning of our relationship and I found out 5 years later. It’s been a year since I found out, and I can’t trust her anymore. What should I do?