Okay so I don’t even know where to start. I’ve been a domme for a while now like I degrade, humiliate, tease, and use weak men for my own fun and honestly? I love it. I don’t even do it for money (most of the time), I do it because it makes me feel powerful and alive. And yeah, I’m a hot girl. I know I’m pretty. I know I have that energy. It’s just who I am and I’m not ashamed of it. However a lot of the men fall deep for me and he noticed that and it made him feel small.

Here’s the thing: I love him. He’s not a sub to me. I don’t want him to ever feel like I see him like the men I break. He’s not in that category. He’s my equal, he’s my person. But I can’t lie this side of me isn’t going away. Being a domme makes me feel in control when everything else in life feels stuck. And right now? I feel stuck in every damn way. I’m basically grounded like a teenager and it’s killing me.

I guess I’m just writing this to ask: if you’re a sub, especially one who’s ever helped a domme when she was down emotionally or literally what would you do for her? I’m not asking for a savior. I’m asking for understanding. I need support, I need a solution, and honestly I need my damn car back so I can breathe again.

This probably sounds messy but I’m not apologizing for who I am. I just don’t want to lose something I love because I love someone too. That’s where I’m at.