So this is gonna be long. I’m drained and confused and hurt. F23, I go to college where I live in an apartment with my close friend I’ve known for a while since going to this uni. This semester he made a new friend. I was at the time involved but not dating my ex. We were giving it a redo run to see if it was right, it wasn’t. The day I ended it this new friend m21 and I ended up kissing and having sex. But the bad part is that he was going to be my friends double roommate for the next semester. We were hooking up for a little bit until our friend found out. He told me we could be official if our friend knew. So when it happened we were official. I was head over heels for this man. He told me everything I wanted to hear. We had a few hiccups along the way. At first I was the one who fucked up because I was still in contact t with someone I used to hook up with but was long distance and we chose to only be friends cuz really the feeling weren’t there. This was a good friend of mine but I ultimately ended up blocking him because of how upset my bf was about it. So that bridge is burnt. Then he started standing me up late at night and one night he got drunk at another girls dorm, with other girls who didn’t like me and then ignored me the entire next day while he had my key card to my building because he was throwing up. Wasn’t apologetic at all. More bs like this would happen. He was really pushy if I said no to secx when he was drunk. And he recently bit my lip so hard it busted open and said that the other men at a bachata event I was invited to by my female friend would know I was his. And one day recently I saw him on my phone, I didn’t care I had nothing to hide. I went about my day at my lash appointment. Anyone who know lashes knows it can take two hours. This time it was about an hour and a half. He was mad at me for not answering and said that his intuition was telling him smth was off. I reassured him because I e never cheated a day in my life I have too much respect for myself. The day went on and it went from a feeling to him saying he has solid proof that I was too friendly to someone who was flirting with me. And someone he doesn’t know sent it to him. He told me I had to guess or he wouldn’t tell me. I went thru my phone phone for anything that could come across as such. Nothing. So I thought it thru as his words got more harsh. I couldn’t take it anymore. I lost weight I was anxious. I cried more times in this relationship than I did in the last two years. So I ended it as politely as possible. We originally agreed if this happened we would be chill for the sake of our friend and room mate. I still plan on it. Now this point is where I admit I did too much. The night after we broke up I was scared to be alone so I went to an old fwb place. Idk how but he found out. The only person I told was our friend but he swears he didn’t say anything. Now he’s telling me to leave the apartment but I have nowhere else to go and it’s my final semester. So I really thought my friend turned on me. Turns out he didn’t tell him and still wanted me to live there. But now this man is saying I’m a cheater and all this horrible stuff when I still never cheated on him. I’m blocked everywhere. And now my friend is so overwhelmed he won t talk to me. Idk what to do. Am I the asshole??