So essentially around 3 years ago a guy (18M now) asked to my my boyfriend and start a relationship with me (now also 18M). This sounds great till you realize that my parents are devout Christians with my dad being a devout Catholic. This continues when I say yes and decide that this will be a fun relationship that'll take my mind of the recent denial I had from a girl in my high school class. Of course I just have to make things worse for myself and the two of us decide to be trans together because we both feel that way.

I then decide to continue this relationship for the three years till now, going through several road bumps of my parents finding out and trying to rip us apart again and again. Unfortunately this then continues to me revealing it all for the most recent time, today (as of posting). I reveal that I was talking to the guy only a few months before college and some 4 months after the last "discovery". As is the usual my dad is furious and my mom is disappointed so much she wants to vomit, and I'm just sitting on the bed depressed and wallowing, crying what are probably crocodile tears.

Eventually the talk ends and I hug my family and I slowly go to break up with the BF/GF. At this point I know I've fucked up so many times with this, I've lied to my parents and tried for years to keep this relationship going, through thick and thin, despite living hours and hours away and having things long distance the whole time I still love them. I broke up with them a while ago though now as of writing this so I just wanted to ask something to this community. Should I stick with my BF/GF despite the fact it will lead to me being ostracized by my family and never being able to see my parents again?