Hi I heve personality going to bpd , I had some sort of a relationship with j I love her , I’m in real bad state and I’m going to rehab and she said she don’t want any contact with me there and said she will won’t to be with me wen I’m out , but my bpd is killing me i miss her I put her on the pedestal and she was perfect, I know she is not but for me she is very important she gave me love I needed but now , I’m scared I miss her and I cry about it 2/3 times a day with her hoodie , I’m scared and terrified I will loose her or she will find someone better then me If u have tips , or advice/ suggestions what cen I do to not loose my mind with grief I will happily take it I’m a girl and just want advice how to handle my mind wen I’m not with her