I expected to update later today of what happened. Thank you all for reading my post. Even tho it's not all that interesting. TLDR at the end.

Also if you haven't read the first part of this post go to my profile and read it from the beginning to get an understanding of what is going on. Thank you.

So today, D-Day I call it. As I imagined/expected it to go doen hill. So this morning, 04/14/25 we got up and got ready to head to Uncle V's place. I was nervous as we got closer to his place feeling the anxiety starting to creep up.

We got to the trailer park they lived in and had my cousin M, aunt N's son (who drives her almost everywhere as she is physically disabled and needs a walker to get around and it's hard for her to drive anymore.)

It took a bit to find their trailer but we eventually did. Thankfully, V Jr. Wasn't there. I was a little relieved but my nerves were still on edge. My aunt N, (shockingly suggested this)

suggested that Uncle V2 go up and knock on the door to see if they recognized him. (Which ironically happened before with her daughter when she told me to do the dame but she didn't recognize me. Good times. Sorry I'm rambling)

Anyways, my aunt C answered and she recognized him immediately. Aunt C:"V2?" V2:"Idk, am I?"

Aunt C:"Your brother's here!. Come on in. Is S with you?" (Aunt S is my uncle V2's wife for context) V2:"No." Aunt C:"How did you know where we lived?" (White pages does wonders lol.)

V2:"N(my mom) found it." Aunt C:"Is she here?" She opened the door and looked outside seeing all of us. Aunt C:"Oh my gosh you guys!" Aunt N:"Surprise!"

I was hiding behind their truck filming the incident cause I figured it would be funny if she didn't recognize him. They were shocked that everyone was here out of thr blue.

We all went in the trailer. Aunt N having the most difficulty getting into the house as the steps were high and made of hardened fiberglass I'm surprised it held any weight. We all managed to get in.

The trailer Aunt N having the most difficulty getting into the house as the steps were high and made of hardened fiberglass I'm surprised it held any weight.

We all managed to get in. The trailer had cigarette smoke redolencing in every square inch of that place.

Made my stomach churn. I've never liked the smell of cigarettes, MJ, beer etc. it makes me want to cut my nose off.

But I dealt with it. My anxiety kept getting more heightened just cause I wasn't sure of V Jr. Was there or not or if he was coming. They talked a bit and got along surprisingly well. I was pleasantly surprised.

We talked for about an hour almost until Aunt C said; "we should call V over and tell him that someone came over!" At first I was like V? What do you mean? He is right here, meaning my Uncle V. Then it hit me. OH, you mean V Jr. nope nope NOPE NOPE!

Just hearing his name set off a huge trigger. I will give myself credit. I tried really really hard to stay there and not lose it. I looked at my mom who's face said "uh oh/oh no."

I had to prop my arm on my face hand covering my mouth so I could keep myself from Judy completely break down crying.

It.. sort of worked? For a moment at least. But my brain kept flashing that image of me being 8 years old and In that dark cramped closet with his huge heavy frame blocking almost all of the light that came through the doorway.

My imagination can be... very vivid and sometimes a curse as it can runaway with me a lot.

I started to silently cry I looked at my mom I saw she was "talking" to Aunt N eith her eyed and small hand movements getting her attention to me as she saw me reacting like that.

I didn't see her face or anything as I didn't want to let my uncles know what was happening and cause a scene. I looked back at my mom as my anxiety built more and more I silently

Tho, almost lost it had tears streaming down my face and my mom nodded to the door mouthing I could go. I grabbed my car keys and without a word got up and walked out almost running to my car. I got in, sobbing.

I saw my cousin M come out, I guess to check on me, but I had backed out went doen the culdasack and turned around and rolled my window down and just told him i was going back to the hotel. He nodded.

My Cousin M is a man of few words, very quiet and reserved but I really appreciate him coming out to check on me. My other uncles and aunt didn't seem to notice that I left. Which was fine.

I didn't want to cause a scene. Whr. I left I cried and sobbed all the eay back to my hotel room. I kind of got lost as my Google maps couldn't pick which direction it was sending me.

I managed to finally get there. I went inside and just broke down. My room felt so dark I had to turn on all the lights to just help calm my sanity. It took a good 15-20 minutes to calm down enough.

I texted my mom hoe long they would be. And if they were gon a be a bit I'd just go eat lunch. She said she wasn't sure and to just go-ahead and eat. So I did.

I left all the lights on and went to Dairy Queen that I hadn't had in ages. I seriously needed some comfort food. I got the chicken strip basket and a large chocolate dipped cone. (I was not prepared on how BIG that sucker would be but dang it felt so nice to eat it.

I know food is never a good thing to rely on when stressed and such, but I didn't know what else to do to help calm me down as well frankly it's all I know.

I'm not like 600 lbs or anything but I'm not skinny by any means. But I am trying to lose slowly but surly. It'd never been an easy road for me. But I keep trying.)

Anyways I got back and ate my food and watched dome cartoons and Joce Bedard. And after I finished lunch. Texted my mom saying if I didn't answer I fell asleep.

And to not freak out. She said they were actually on their way back. Uncle V and Uncle V2 went to Uncle V's Dr appointment and my mom rode back with Aunt N and cousin M.

So I didn't have to pick her up. I was thankful as I REEEALLLY didn't want to go back to that house. Especially if I didn't know if he was still there or not.

A few minutes later my mom came knocking on the door and came into grab some stuff ad she was going to go to Aunt N and Cousin M's room to talk and chat.

When she left I dozed off for a bit till Uncle V2 came back to the room afte the room. I fell back asleep till about 7 and my Uncle V2 had hit the hay already. He, my mom and I shared a room as well were poor. He has his own bed and my mom and I shared one.

He's an EXTREMELY light sleeper not a dead asleep sleeper like me, my mom and dad are. So I asked my mom if wr could go to Walmart to get some shopping done and to tell me what all went down when I left.

We left and I felt like I could actually move around and talk as I couldn't while my uncle was sleeping. I mean it's fine I can watch vids on my phone with my headphones and not wake him I'm just not use to having to tip toe and be as quiet as a mouse as to not wake him

Anyways we went to Walmart and just parked and stayed in the car. She had said that it went surprisingly well! Which can only be by the Grace of God as it is almost UNHEARD of them getting along eith no arguing and fighting.

So praise God for that! There was some hurt that was let out in the open. Apologies said. And forgiveness. And a lot of mending of family bonds. I'm happy my moms family is on the road of healing.

But it is going to be a VERY LONG hard road. I'm not sure if aunt N and Uncle V2 will stay in touch after this and actually talk, but they've at least played nice on this trip so far.

Now to cousin V Jr. After all of that he had came after the talking and such. And was surprised to see everyone etc. But he didn't stay long and after chatting he left to pick up his kid and go to work. Yes, he has a kid. Not sure how old or how many he has.

But tomorrow the plan is to go get breakfast. I asked my mom if HE would be there and she said more than likely. She said I didn't have to sit near him, but I told her of my reaction was so strong just by hearing his name and that he was coming.

Having him in the same building as me was not going to be any better and that it may be even worse.

She understood, tho sad I won't be there, but she understands. Which I'm thakful for. She's been my rock through a lot of hard times in my life. Especially when I have complete breakdowns/meltdowns. I'm glad she's my mom.

I hope and pray that tomorrow goes OK while I'm not there. We shall see how it goes. But I'm gonna be elsewhere and have Starbucks for breakfast. In the small town I'm in their isn't much in the way of stores or coffee shops.

We don't have walmart, Safeway, city market etc. No Starbucks. Which sucks as I like their coffee even tho it costs like 10+ bucks for one large coffee.

Anyways, thank you all for reading and taking time our of your day to read a snippet of my life and to hear me ramble. Sorry if I did I tend to go on rabbit trails a lot. 😅

I'll update tomorrow and let yall know what happened God bless.

TLDR: I tried to go to my uncles house and stay, but when mu cousin V Jr. Was mentioned I left and had a breakdown, but my mom's side of thr family's family bonds are slowly starting to heal and mend so aside from that it was a good day. Tomorrow we shall see what happens at breakfast. I'll post an update tomorrow. Thanks for reading.