Hi everyone, I'm posting this update thanks to the feedback I received. Although it wasn't much, it was helpful, and I want to thank you for your advice. English isn't my language, but I'll try to express myself well. I've decided to ignore what my parents and family say. I've reflected and realized that I don't think it's important to have a partner. Honestly, I don't know why I feel this way, but I feel like it's not for me.

My parents are worried that I won't have anyone to care for me in my old age, but there are even older people who have families and have abandoned them, so I don't consider it important, and I think it's very wrong to have children just to care for me in my old age. There aren't good nursing homes in my country, but I'd rather be able to save up to pay for one good nursing home. I don't have health insurance because, due to my genetic condition, they would charge me more, and I don't have a job to pay for it. Furthermore, the public insurance in my country is terrible, and it's even possible that It could go bankrupt due to poor goverment management.

I'm currently looking for a job, no matter what, because it's a shame to still be unemployed, and although my degree has been practically useless, I can't choose. I'm just waiting to fully recover from my knee injury so I can go to interviews without a cane and have a better chance of being accepted. I lost over a year due to this injury, and in my country, if you have medical problems, they don't hire you. Sometimes, if you have a registered disability have a chance of being accepted, the disability has to be registered, but I can't register it because I need a considerable amount of money for the genetic test. My condition is considered rare in my country, so it's not very useful. That's why I've decided not to disclose my disability so I have a chance at getting a job.

As for my decision, I think it's because as a child I was sexually abused by a relative. That's why I find having a partner abhorrent. Honestly, intimate contact repulses me. Although I had two boyfriends, I never truly loved them. With one, I was able to begin having intimate relationships, but I found it repulsive. I've also been bullied, but I've largely overcome it. I have a hard time containing my emotions, as I'm quite cold. However, when interacting, I do well. Although I'm very serious, I'm not one of those people who likes to have a cheerful expression when walking down the street. I only show my emotions when I feel safe. I don't have any friends, as I was never good at socializing. My interactions are basically good—just for navigating the environment, not for making friends. I'm unlucky because I attract vulgar, opportunistic people, and that's why I've isolated myself. Some friends I thought I had weren't really friends and drifted away. I can't build good relationships, perhaps because I'm bad at socializing. But I have a saying: I'd rather have no friends than opportunistic friends. My aunts worry because I don't have a partner and tell me I should smile and accept the "compliments" on the street, but I don't like it at all and I wouldn't accept just any man or woman. I'm not desperate for a partner, and they even tried to match me with someone, but luckily, when I get angry, I'm a totally different person (I follow the saying "never anger the calm one"), and that's why they haven't succeeded.

Aclaration: I have no contact with my paternal family because they are narcissistic, parasitic, problematic, gossipy and opportunistic (they have all the qualities of a Karen multiplied by 1000), the uncle who abused me was my paternal uncle (the golden son of the family) and they defended him, I have cut them off and I don't want to know anything about them, they are the worst kind of people I have ever me.

I may need therapy for the abuse I suffered, but I don't have the money, and I don't think it's important to spend it, as I've already overcome so much of it and have to buy medication for another illness. This illness can cause infertility and other conditions. I had surgery and need to continue treatment because surgery doesn't guarantee that the disease won't progress. I may even need lifelong treatment. The only definitive solution is to remove my uterus. But I don't have the money to do it, and at my age and with my relationship history (I've never had sex in my life), my doctor doesn't want to do it and doesn't see it as necessary because I'm responding well to treatment. I also consume blueberries for their antioxidants and essential oils, which have helped me respond well to treatment.

Regarding my genetic condition, I'm taking the appropriate measures. I joined a gym because my doctor told me it's best to strengthen my muscles with exercise, as muscle weakness causes pain, something I fortunately haven't had. I also have certain gastrointestinal problems due to this condition, but luckily I consume kefir, which helps a lot.

For me, pregnancies are very complicated. Because of my condition, which can cause infertility, I would have to undergo more checkups and discontinue treatment because the medication has a contraceptive effect. And because of my genetic condition, I would have a high-risk pregnancy because my uterus could tear or shift downward. This condition also affects my tissues and blood vessels. I tend to bleed easily, and my recovery is slow because my wounds don't heal well.

And I've decided to take into account what my genetics teacher said in her classes (my degree is related to biology and medicine), which was something like this: if there's an infertility problem, it's because nature tells you that you have genetic problems that you shouldn't pass on to the next generation. That's why nature, being perfect, so to speak, with infertility, tells you not to have children because there's a chance they'll be born sick or you'll be at some risk. My teacher didn't criticize couples who wanted to have children, but she said it's better to give responsible adoption a chance than to persist and cling to the idea of ​​having children after receiving an infertility diagnosis. Everyone will have their own opinion, as this is a very controversial topic, and I respect that.

The good thing about my genetic condition is that I look younger, I look between 6 and 10 years younger. Thank you all for reading my post. I don't know if I'll do another update, but if something relevant comes up, I will.