I'll put this here and in another post. So I got to clarify something, right now I am attending college. It hasn't been difficult, I've had one rude professor but over all passing my classes. I plan to build up my GPA up to a 4.0 so I can get accepted into a good university. I may not be as young as I used to be.

However, I felt like I owed myself that freedom I never got to experience, which is odd considering I live in America. I did talk to my mom about it, and at first she wasn't to enthused. She tried to tell me that I wouldn't be able to do it but once I showed her my GPA and grades so far. Which was mostly A's and B's she caved and told me that if I want to move out then to go for it.

I asked her what she'd do once I'm gone and she explained that she would figure it out like she usually does. I worry because if I was to leave, how would she take care of herself? Will she be able to the money for food and bills? Would she be ok alone? Etc. I know at most it will be 3 to 4 years but I always asked myself if she'd be alright during that time.

My older sister gave our mom 2 grandsons and one granddaughter that spends a lot of time with her. Which keeps her sane but my concerns make me constantly worried. My back up plan is to find a good entry job so I can still help and live my own life but leaving my current life of everything I once new was true, is a lot harder then I'd thought. I do want to thank everyone for their kind words, brutal honesty and endless support. If there's another update I'll let you know. :)