Hi everyone

I am a 28 year old man with severe OCD. In particular, I have what is known as "pedophile OCD" (just google "pedo OCD" to learn more about this horrid thing), which means I'm terrified of the possibility that I am a pedophile. I'm terrified of the possibility that I might be a bad person. Back in September 2014, when I was 18 years old, I had attempted suicide because I thought I was indeed a pedo.

Several months before I attempted suicide, in 2013 or 2014, I was tutoring a small boy, who was around 7 years old at that time. One night, when I was helping him study, I put my hand on his leg, for no reason at all. It came out of nowhere. I don't remember the boy being disturbed or scared by it, and the tutoring session went on as normal.

Now, in 2025, I'm kind of melting down about this incident. What would you have done if you saw me putting my hand on that child's leg?