TW - mentions of bullying

For context, I have been diagnosed autistic very late, at age of 29 years during Covid. So I had no idea what I was doing wrong for those girls disliking me. I was just a very shy girl who preferred to read.

1This is a big one, so Strap yourselves in. I am not a native English speaker so here goes.

I'll use fake names and fake places because this would be picked by most of the people concerned.

Let's call my so called best friend 'N.' Let us call the bullies 'B.A ', B. H and B. C, aka , Mean Girls, following the main bully, Regina George.

I went to a boarding school in the early 2000s that encompassed most what people in the US would call middle-school to Junior Highschool ages. So from ages 10 to 15. This boarding school had two options : either you went to the school physically and returned home at 5-ish pm or you lived in the dormitories that were invigilated by.

Because I was the new kid in this school, Regina George, B.A, B.H and B.C saw to it I would be left out of any social gatherings, I was the one being piled with work whenever I got pairred with them to do group projects/group essays . Among other things that were passive agressive (leaving the windows open when we were in the showers so the boys could try to peak, lock me in a bathroom stall) , they just didn't hang out with me or helped me with my studies.

Up till day I think I wasn't masking as an undiagnosed autist.

I began to mask when I realised their bullying escalated to flat out allow the boys to steal things from me or tell the boys when i was mostly unguarded. The bullying ONLY stopped when I acted physically and seriously harmed Regina by shoving her when she wouldn't give me my bag she stole.

Enter Regina's mom, Karen. Karen basically stormed to the principal's office and demanded I should be expelled and sent to a 'corrective facility'. My aunt managed to defend me and convince Karen not to have a 'junior arrest warrant' from the police - or worse, call the CPS on my dad.

My only friend was a girl who back then didn't do any of the bullying. She refused to do it. She invited me to her house and sometimes we even hanged out during summer vacations. After turning 15 both my friend and I moved to a different highschool to prepare for university. I distanced myself and became a bit of a loner during those years, focusing more on my studies than in any friends.

Over 16 years pass and Regina's Bestie, B.C invites me in a Facebook chat, asking if I wanted to go to a highschool reunion. I flat out refuse , saying I can't forgive any of them. She replies with I am being childish and those things werent' so bad, and that all of them were just kids.

Regina dies a couple of weeks after that invitation. Mind you, this was during Christmas holidays.

April comes in, and I see my best friend in a few photos , saying how she reconnected with her 'best friends' from Cityville so and so. I am so frustrated...but i don't have the courage to block this friend. We had gone through so much during the 8 or so years I hanged around her and I often chatted with her on facebook during uni. During uni, she often said her classmates from the boarding school - not including me - were very hypocritical and boring.

Should I call her out...?