I (24F), and I've been struggling with my relationship with my brother (27M). About 6 years ago, when I was 17, my brother asked me if we could do something intimate (I don't want to use the exact words). It wasn't forced or physical, but his intentions were not right, and it completely shattered the connection I had with him. He did some other weird things during that time - m*sturbated when he knew I was around, asked me to kiss him, etc., Since then, I just don't see him as my brother anymore.

He's been through a lot, though-he has chronic kidney disease and goes for dialysis three times a week. I want to help him, I really do, but I don't feel that brotherly bond anymore. The sympathy I have for him is just because I am a human, not because he is my brother. My mom doesn't fully understand because of his health, and my brother and she expect me to support them in certain ways, like they want me to be emotionally involved but I am simply not able to do that. I feel like I'm holding everything in. I don't know how to move forward, and I can't bring myself to forgive him.

I'm trying to support my family, but it feels like I'm losing myself in the process. I just don't know how to navigate these feelings anymore. So, AlTA for not caring for him the way my family expects me to?

P.S. - We all live together. My mom is a single parent, my dad died when I was 6.