Yea I know, it already sounds bad but before you judge I just want to make it aware that when I went on a date with her she wanted to kiss and make out in the back of my car immediately and invited me inside to fuck after I had first met her face to face 4 hours prior.

TLDR: I’ve been an extremely unlucky and I’ve been fucked over ALOT in the relationship game and I want to go against my better judgement and date a hyper-sexual woman primarily for sex.

The quickest way I can sum this up is as follows: A brief summary of my past relationships would be the girl who yelled rape, the domestic terror and right person wrong time. I am by no means a flawless person but I try to be kind, more often I tent to want to take a more serious and emotional approach with my partners but i live in a small town in the Midwest, options are limited and I date to marry. A lot of the people my age are very “cardio centric” or bluntly, perverts. I’m not a massive fan of sex but after being fucked over and alone at square one for the fourth time I’m stressed and a one night stand made my mood improve a lot over the course of the week and I was on a bit of a high for two weeks after. Idk why but the fact that after she got in bed to cuddle and I felt a lot calmer and relaxed than I had been in along time. It felt nice to not be played or rejected for once.

I’ve talked with her about going on dates and even about just FWB she was very much interested. I don’t want to fuck over anyone else but if she’s okay with it then why should I care? I feel like I’m throwing away my morals but if I’m this affected by a meaningless one night stand then why do I feel so bad. I’ve already been going to weekly therapy for this and I’ve made great progress in mindset and outlook but it’s all so negative.

What should I do? I’m thinking of just going out and seeing if it can be something first and reevaluating everything after.