Sorry for the phrasing of the title, I know it sounds kind of stupid but that's about as clear as I could make it without having it be super long.

I [25M] never knew who my dad was growing up and I found out around Christmas of 2023 that my uncle (my mom's brother) is my biological father. It's been a hell of a lot to process. I kind of cycle through different emotions and feel kind of guilty about some of them, especially because my mom truly is and always has been a great mom and my uncle has always been a great uncle and has always been there for me, but I still obviously feel super upset, disgusted, etc at times about all of this.

I've really been considering going to therapy to talk about all of this for pretty obvious reasons. I want to process everything and I want to move past a lot of the things I go back and forth on feeling. My girlfriend has been super supportive and really really thinks I should go (and my mom really encouraged me to go the one time I brought it up to her), and even though I agree with her that I ideally should go, I feel really hesitant for a lot of reasons.

The biggest thing stopping me is that I'm worried that it will negatively affect my mom and uncle, and to a lesser extent, myself. Obviously I kind of worry that a therapist would have a hard time treating me the way I'd like and talking about my mom and uncle the way I'd like during sessions, but my bigger concern is that the therapist would get my mom and uncle in trouble somehow or that they'd have trouble if the therapist ever saw them in person. The town I (and my mom and uncle) live in is pretty small and there's just one therapy office/group here, so I'm worried that if I went to therapy my therapist would see both me and my mom and uncle just out and about.

I've tried online therapy because I thought that would be a good solution, but I tried a couple therapists and it honestly just felt so cold and impersonal. It just didn't feel right, and I actually didn't even get to bringing this up with any of them before stopping. I think I'd need to find a place to go to in person to feel comfortable, but I also feel worried about going anywhere.

I guess I just wonder if I can do this and avoid any negative impacts.