For context, my dad (50M) regularly sends me (18F) at least £30 to £50 a week so that I can have money to buy food, top up my phone and anything else I would want.

Now, I only just turned 18 about three weeks ago and in the UK Im one of many that was qualified for the child trust fund scheme where I was able to chose wether I want to continue investing my money, cash it out or save it. Ultimately, I chose to cash it all out, with the intention of not informing my dad because I didn’t want to chance him asking for me to send him money (as long as it wasn’t above like £150 or £200 max).

And so today I made the mistake of telling him about my trust fund money. Now, I only told him so he didn’t have to worry about sending me money as he told me how he purchased my older brother (M30) a car back in our home country, so he was currently struggling financially hence why he hadn’t sent me money this week, which was fine by me. This all occurred earlier on during the day.

However, almost 50 minutes ago he called me and said that he wanted to take a chance with me…and yes you guessed it he asked me if I could send him £300 and he would pay me back with interest within the next two weeks. And obviously I hesitantly agreed only because I know that he always tries his best to make sure that I don’t go without. Despite this I decided against sending him the money (I haven’t told him yet because I’m still on the fence) only because he hasn’t had the best track record of paying people back (he still owes my mum at least 1k and owes my nan some rent money from when he used to live with her).

So yeah..hopefully this makes sense, if you have any questions or advice please let me know 🥲. I feel so conflicted and overwhelmed, the people pleaser in me wants to say yes but the other part of me doesn’t want to only because ik I’ll have other expenses to pay for in the next two weeks which will set me back even further 🥲.

(And yes I’m aware that I’m probably being selfish 🥲)